Below are the 19 most recent journal entries recorded in Will Dedrick's LiveJournal:

Sunday, August 27th, 2006
2:43 am	a poem for her heres my poem i wrote for my girlfriend jessica: Smile that fills the air with wings Eyes that shine like flowers in the spring Face that blankets my past and tears Warmth that covers my haunts and fears Her that fills the sun with light Deepening over the clouds of white She that produces the stars in the sky She that wipes the tears from my eyes Smile that takes my breath away Love that carries me through the day Eyes that glitter with the moon in the light With time that ticks slowly and right, She is the love of my life. Current Mood: content (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, August 7th, 2006
7:12 pm	hey hey first day of my senior year at paxon. i have 6 electives and 4 mandatory classes i must take in order to graduate. my schedule is: 1A)Probability and Statistics-must pass 2A)Anatomy-must pass 3A)Stagecraft I 4A)Music Theory I 1B)AP European History-must pass 2B)Chorus I 3B)AP English Literature-must pass 4B)Computer Applications I so my senior schedule isnt as hard as my junior one was. i hope to do better this yr. Current Mood: content (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 2nd, 2006
1:18 am	tears and rain Tears the drops from my eyes Rain the way that I feel inside Tears the lonliness of my heart Rain the shelter from the start Tears the thoughts that fill my mind Rain the memories of my time Tears the drowning of my skin Rain the crying I hold within Tears the neverending story Rain the shattered glory Tears the waking of my eyes Rain the holding of my lies Tears the wings of my soul Rain the carriage of my goals Tears the end of darkness night Rain the dawn of morning light Tears are the ways in which I melt Rain builds the tears of what I felt Tears drop the way I feel inside Rain brings the tears to my eyes Current Mood: blank (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 29th, 2006
9:24 pm	strength no words can be said about this past friday. Current Mood: crappy (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 25th, 2006
11:40 pm	hey -hanging out with my bff on friday -gonna go to the st johns towncenter and then movie night -hopefully gonna have fun like i did last time -got two shows tomm and one thursday. -last day of work on friday -feeling alright, im just worried about certain things like always. Current Mood: curious (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 23rd, 2006
4:36 pm	nothing else in the world i'd rather wake up and see(with you) i've made my decision to go with the only grl i've ever truly loved. I say a lot of things to people, but some of those things i feel i didnt mean or i wasnt sure if i meant anything by it, but i do know i mean when i say that i love only one grl and she knows who she is. i got the chance to hang out with her a few days ago. it was the best time of my life. im not a mean person, and i dont want to hurt my girlfriend's feelings, but i've tried to forget about the feelings i've always had with this grl and they just wont go away. she means so much to me as does my girlfriend, but the feelings i felt with her are not there, the feelings i felt with this grl are still there and i want to try and make it work again. theres nothing else in the world i'd rather wake up and see(with you)...... Current Mood: content (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 21st, 2006
12:19 pm	update -saw davinci code on friday with my mom and matt. It was really good. It focuses solely on the book. -party on saturday got canceled -today will either be a study for two finals tomm day or just chill and relax day. I havent decided yet. -4 more days of school. -13 days until Phantom of the Opera. Its gonna be great. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 7th, 2006
7:56 pm	half the man i thought i would be I never thought that I would become half the man I wanted to be. My memories are lost and forgotten, frozen in time. I wish I could go back to the day when I felt alive. The days of compassion and love are coming to an end. The days of isolation and lonliness are coming in. Have you ever felt the need to want to be lonely? Or the feeling that you think your lonely but your not so sure? You know your lonely when you look in the mirror and you don't see the one you love. You know your lonely when your thinking of the one you love....but cannot have. I never thought that I would become half the man, or half the person I wanted to be. Its so hard to describe the feelings I am going through. I try and try to ignore it but its hard to ignore when your constantly thinking about all the things that you've lost. Every day I wake up and feel like giving up. But I can't give up, because what I had still means a lot to me. I've given it up before and I regret it completely. I know that I'm not the only one in the entire world who is going through what I am going through, but most people who go through it do not fully understand why or how. I understand how but I do not understand why. Have you ever thought that when you love someone so much, is it too much to bring it all out, or when you love someone so much, do you really know if they love you back? What I'm saying is that I love someone so much but when I try and bring it in, I fail. I make it worse and worse. Its hard to keep back from someone you love. Its hard to just forget about it. Its hard to move on. I'm not saying its impossible, I'm saying that I cannot do it because doing it would hurt me too much as I'm already hurting. Becoming half the man I thought I would be is because I loved someone so much that I could not let it continue. I could definitely take it in and feel it and know it, but I could not let it continue. If only I had the strength to carry on, to build it up. Every day it seems like its too late to try again. In my heart, I want to love the same person I've loved, but my heart also tells me that she's gone. I'm becoming half the man I thought I would be. Current Mood: sad (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 22nd, 2006
12:23 am	wassup alright well about a month ago, I was just randomly playing anything that came to me on the piano and I came across a really good beat so I added on and added onto it and well finally I finished the entire song itself. So then I moved on with the lyrics which I have right here and will show you all the lyrics and lol don't try and like steal them b/c i've already posted them onto my poem website which shows the copyright on it and of course my name lol. The song is called: "Awhile" Verse 1 I see what you believe We came from here we came from there I know your secret I know its true I know the days I know the ways and Chorus When I'm lonely.. You come a thousand miles Your the only One that loved me for awhile Verse 2 I see what you believe We live so far we have no car I know its hard I know its true I know the days I know the ways and Chorus When I'm lonely.... You come a thousand miles Your the one and only One that loved me for awhile Chorus When I'm lonely..... You come a thousand miles Your the one and only One that loved me for awhile Verse 3 I know the days we tried to face I miss the kiss I miss just this And I know you feel bad I know its true Just be happy, just be so happy I... Chorus When I'm lonely..... You come a thousand miles Your the one and only One that loved me for awhile Verse 4 I wish for you to smile a way I'll try to go on another day I know your secret I know its true I'll stop trying to be with you... Chorus When I'm lonely..... You come a thousand miles Your the one and only One that loved me for awhile One that loved me for awhile One that loved me for awhile..... Current Mood: anxious (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, April 20th, 2006
4:49 pm	nothin much ~just got done with piano lessons ~got some hw to do ~i'm the audio guy for the new comedy play at Theatre Jax, Lettice and Lovage ~This "new" life of mine isnt as good as my "old" life was but maybe as time slowly goes by it will change, but for now i'm lonely, but we will see what happens. Current Mood: blank (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 9th, 2006
10:40 am	don't forget about love -I'm listening to a really good song right now by Matchbox 20 called If You're Gone here are the lyrics: I think I've already lost you I think you're already gone I think I'm finally scared now You think I'm weak - but I think you're wrong I think you're already leaving Feels like your hand is on the door I thought this place was an empire Now I'm relaxed - I can't be sure I think you're so mean - I think we should try I think I could need - this in my life I think I'm scared - I think too much I know this is wrong it's a problem I'm dealing If you're gone - maybe it's time to come home There's an awful lot of breathing room But I can hardly move If you're gone - baby you need to come home, come home There's a little bit of something me In everything in you I bet you're hard to get over I bet the moon just won't shine I bet my hands I can stay here I bet you need - more than you mind I think you're so mean - I think we should try I think I could need - this in my life I think I'm just scared - that I know too much I can't relate and that's a problem I'm feeling If you're gone - maybe it's time to COME home There's an awful lot of breathing room But I can hardly move If you're gone - baby you need to come home, come home There's a little bit of something me In everything in…………………… you I think you're so mean - I think we should try I think I could need - this in my life and I think I'm scared - do I talk too much I know it’s wrong it's a problem I'm dealing If you're gone - maybe it's time to come home There's an awful lot of breathing room But I can hardly move If you're gone – Hell, baby you need to come home There's a little bit of something me In everything in you, everything in ….in you. -anyway, well this song is dedicated to brianna. I hope we can both work it out and be happy again. If she's gone from my heart, my life won't be the same. I want her to come home. Current Mood: sad (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 30th, 2006
9:01 pm	hey -purchased phantom of the opera tickets for me and brianna -get my license next wednesday...excited about it -got my report card today, i have good grades except in analytic geometry, i got a D -got a poetry award for my poem entitled true love -hopefully seeing a movie this weekend, Ice Age 2 (Comment on this)
Saturday, March 25th, 2006
8:50 pm	and were keeping it....keep it all goin i love my g/f brianna (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 26th, 2006
10:57 pm	Brianna is beautiful Today was a day to remember. Brianna came over to my house around 2:30pm. My friend Matt brought my job application.(yes im getting a job lol). I filled it out, and he left, and brianna and i went upstairs to my room and played around on the computer, listened to songs from RENT and other songs. We ate some chicken tenders for lunch and I watched her draw a beautiful picture. Shes so talented. Im telling u if Julliard Does not ACCEPT BRIANNA, this they got problems....big problems. After lunch, we headed back upstairs and finally watched RENT and just cuddled next to each other and laughed and joked and just overall had a great time. The saddest part was when I had to take her back home around 7:30pm. Its a school night lol.(i know it suks but at least i got to see my princess). She looked incredibly beautiful when I saw her at her house. Her soft hair bundled up in pigtails. Her smile that melts my heart. She is an angel and I love her so much. We also got to play with my dog Buddy whos so cute. I hope Brianna enjoyed herself. I know I did. I'm glad everything is ok, and I'm really happy.Brianna is the girl I am in love with and I will never hurt her again. I love you brianna. She is an angel. Current Mood: loved (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, February 10th, 2006
10:33 am	Re: my girlfriend I'm back just to say that I wrote wonderful lyrics for my girlfriend. Its called: "When I see her smile". If only I had maybe a drummer,guitarist, and well I'm not that bad of a singer, and I play the piano, u know it would be awesome to put these great lyrics into a song. Anyway, I like to write a lot of songs and poetry also. So here is the song I wrote for my girlfriend Brianna, because she means so much to me, and I care about her a lot. I love you sweetheart! <3 "When I see her smile" By: William Dedrick When I see her in the morning sun I wake up knowing that she's the one Get up slowly my eyes do see Her smile that melts with me Oh when I see her smile She makes me laugh for quite awhile I know I won't give up I'll love her so Until the day I die, until my life unfolds Breathing in I hear her say Darling Darling you take my breath away When I'm lonely she comes a thousand miles Oh when I see her smile When I hear her from the telephone I know I can't explain my heart has flown Her voice comes out and I can tell you now When she sings its like my life is found Oh when I see her smile She makes me laugh for quite awhile I know I won't give up I'll love her so Until the day I die, until my life unfolds Breathing in I hear her say Darling Darling you take my breath away When I'm lonely she comes a thousand miles Oh when I see her smile When the sun is gone and the stars appear I take my hand to wipe away her tears Sadness when she leaves for home She says she never wants to be alone Oh when I see her smile She makes me laugh for quite awhile I know I won't give up I'll love her so Until the day I die, until my life unfolds Breathing in I hear her say Darling Darling you take my breath away When I'm lonely she comes a thousand miles Oh when I see her smile When I see her in the morning sun I wake up knowing that she's the one Get up slowly my eyes can see Her smile is what melts with me Oh when I see her smile She makes me laugh for quite awhile I know I won't give up I'll love her so Until the day I die,until my life unfolds Breathing in I hear her say Darling Darling you take my breath away When I'm lonely she comes a thousand miles Oh when I see her smile Darling Darling you take my breath away Breathing in I hear her say When I'm lonely she comes a thousand miles Oh...when I see her smile To the girl I love: Brianna Current Mood: happy (Comment on this)
Monday, January 16th, 2006
10:30 am	Re:Brianna Hey im back. I just wanted to let everyone who reads my journals of how Brianna makes me feel. Everytime I see her, I blush. When she smiles, I laugh. When she's sick, I cry, and hold her in my arms like an angel. When she's sad, I tell her everything will be alright and that I love her. When I see her beautiful brown eyes, I think to myself, wow, she is so special to me, and that I will make her happy and make her dreams a reality. Brianna makes me feel like im strong, that no matter what happens, she will be there, laying beside me with my head against her, sleeping and dreaming of how much I love her. This may sound corny to some people, but Brianna is my girlfriend, my special someone who I think about, dream about, speak about, and love. Brianna has many faces, faces that I have spoken of before. Her sad face is the one that breaks all the others. Brianna also has many smiles. My favorite is the smile she gave when I saw her for the first time ever in person. Those bright brown eyes shined like sparkling diamonds. Brianna means the world to me, and I'm glad I can be a part of her life, and be there for her. I am very lucky to have someone who cares about me for who I am, and loves me very much. Thank you Brianna for letting me be a part of you, for you are my angel, and I love you with every piece of my heart. Current Mood: indescribable (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 8th, 2006
7:02 am	Re:True Love Hey everyone! Its been awhile since i've said anything on livejournal. So I am here to tell all who want to know that I love Brianna so much and I wrote her a serious poem telling her how much she means to me, that I care for her and that I love her. The poem is entitled "True Love", because that is what our love really is. I hope you like the poem sweetheart, I love you! "True Love" Love is shared with me, I take it in, I take it deep Close my eyes and see the truth That my love is with you Promises here and there I''ll be by her side, I'll take good care Hold her hand and kiss her cheek Cuddle up right near a creek Love is shared with me I take it in, I take it deep Close my eyes and I see the truth That my love is shared with you Lifts me up and follows me through My life is made for me and you My love is why I''m here to say Your heart is why I''m here today Drifts to my kiss to you Loves what makes me smile, its true Love at first sight Believe it I do Brianna made it right I love her its true Current Mood: loved (Comment on this)
Friday, December 23rd, 2005
5:56 pm	Re:hallelujah Hey everyone, Brianna left today around 2-4 pm. I miss her terribly right now, but I know that she will have two great shows. I love her so much. I will hopefully get to see her when she gets back, which is Monday Dec 26th. She said she would call me on Sunday for Christmas which is gonna be really sad especially without Brianna, but I love her for who she is and what she does, and shes a dancer, and I totally respect that. I just wish I could of gone with her, because I would of liked to be there to support her, especially since shes gone to Tampa to perform Phantom of the Opera for ballet for the World of Dance. She is so talented and I love her to death. I hope she does a fantastic job for me, and for everyone who watches her those two wonderful nights. She told me she didn't wanna go because she would miss me too much, and I told her that she doesnt have to worry about me, im gonna be fine, and that I love her and that I will always be with her, even if im not there in person, that I will be in her heart, and in her music box lol. I love her so much and I hope she will take everyone's breath away at her two shows. Good luck sweetheart! Current Mood: touched (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 21st, 2005
9:41 pm	best day of my life Hey guys this is my very first entry. I just wanted to say that tonight was great especially since my g/f was here with me. I wrote her a poem not too long ago entitled "Brianna": Her smile lights up the sea And brings tears to my eyes Her laugh sets me free Shes the one for me Her voice soars like the wind As my heart skips a beat From beginning to end She's the one I seek Her faces are worthwhile From funny to happy to mad You'll fall with a smile And never feel sad Her love and charm Brought us tight When shes in my arms The time is right Her thoughts of care Her hugs that I bare Bring us together This girl I love Now and forever .........I had a wonderful time with Brianna tonight and I'm gonna miss her when she leaves for Tampa this Friday. I hope to see her again when she returns. I love her so much! xoxoxoxoxoxoxo.....<3<3<3 Current Mood: loved (Comment on this)